Monday, August 17, 2009
Not a confession but it is what it is.
I am so thankful that I have God's word to go to when I need it. I sometimes wonder how people in the world manage, its not that I'm not a weak person. I can endure alot of things (even if/when I complain) but I am stronger in HIM and there are times when I just know that I'm not strong enough to make things happen on my own and I need God's backing, favor, protection, etc. I know I'll look back on these blogs the next time I'm in doubt...but for now, I will continue to be encouraged and allow God's word to pacify my spirit.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Why I don't write
My thoughts are (at the moment) lost to me
Where do I begin?
Now that I sit down with my pen
To put into words the chaos within
The voices are silent
In the time it takes to quiet the storm
The passion that stirred me to write it gone
I'm left empty
Saturday, August 1, 2009
The Journey Begins NOW...
I'd accepted Christ when I was 7 years old, and was baptized shortly after and as young child there really wasn't that much in terms of really bad, sinful things that I could get into. As I got older that changed, I'm jumping ahead a bit but as a teenager and then young adult I didn't always make the best choices. I did things that satisfied me temporarily and instantly, I stepped out of God's will for my life. By the time I hit 22 I was ready to really rededicate myself to God. That didn't mean that I completely quit all of the bad things I'd picked up but a huge portion of my change came from making a conscious effort to remove certain things from my "line of vision" or my immediate circle. I didn't catch everything but I'm still working on it. Take my music for example... I try not to listen to a lot of the music that plays now because its mostly about sex or is filled with profanity. I try and curb what I watch for the same reasons I can't fill my mind with sex, and profane language (especially if these are areas I have trouble overcoming) and then expect to not have an issue with it. Another area where I need to work on renewing my mind is in the area of gossiping and criticising people. I keep prayng for wisdom in handling some of my relationships where I can just as easily lash out and speak on things out of anger instead of in love and thats just not right or helpful...
So I have a ways to go but I'm thankful that I still have the ability, resources and desire to renew my mind.
Monday, July 27, 2009
2009 Change Experience- MY 21 day Challenge
What I pray to take away from this challenge is a closer relationship with God, a better understanding of who I am in Christ, what God's will is for me in the 3 areas addressed by the challenge and finally a path to improve those areas that I can diligently maintain.
As I go through the challenge I'll make sure to post my observations. Thanks in advance for your prayers.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
We went to subway on the Promenade and talked about this lady singing a sad song on such a beautiful day. We talked lanyards and how Dante planned to make his evil by putting metal beads on it and using it to hit random people across the street. We talked about his article on ThaO'show and how the issue of stereotypes is still prominent even in wrestling. I love that people think racism is over, and that minorities don't still have to deal with it.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
July 14, 2009
I keep so much inside and it frustrates me but I can't always vocalize it in ways that other people can understand and I end up more frustratded, when trying to relay my feelings, than when I just keep things inside. I think I might need to go to counseling again. I need to vent to someone who is completly unbiased.
I know that I could vent to God too... He always listens. It's kinda funny cause even as I'm writing this I'm feeling better. Sometimes I just need to remind myself that God's word is there not only as a reminder of how I should live me life but also as a reminder of God's love for me. As I continue to keep that in mind I forget about those things that bother me and conjest my mind. I know that at some point I'll have to address them. But for now I can keep thinking about Neh. 8:10 the latter part says "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."
Until the next time something negative tried to plauge my thoughts....
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Hope this works...
There is more to me but I just wanted to see what it was like to actually blog... YEA 1 down how many more to go??!!?!?!?