July 14, 2009

So today was not one of my best days. I was given my "final notice" about making mistakes (more specifically in regard to this one client's case) but I think that may aslo apply to my general performance. For some reason I just cannot seem to focus. The moment I got the "notice" I started to react... my stomache started knotting up and I have this headache that even Extra Strength Tylonol can't fix. I'm sure blogging during the day can't possibly help... but the rest of my time is already taken up so I gotta use what time I have.


I keep so much inside and it frustrates me but I can't always vocalize it in ways that other people can understand and I end up more frustratded, when trying to relay my feelings, than when I just keep things inside. I think I might need to go to counseling again. I need to vent to someone who is completly unbiased.

I know that I could vent to God too... He always listens. It's kinda funny cause even as I'm writing this I'm feeling better. Sometimes I just need to remind myself that God's word is there not only as a reminder of how I should live me life but also as a reminder of God's love for me. As I continue to keep that in mind I forget about those things that bother me and conjest my mind. I know that at some point I'll have to address them. But for now I can keep thinking about Neh. 8:10 the latter part says "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Until the next time something negative tried to plauge my thoughts....