Monday, July 20, 2009

SO my boyfriend finally came to visit me at work after much kicking and screaming... -->

JUST KIDDING!!!

My boyfriend did come to visit me at work this past Monday. It was very much needed. I was really tired from the running around most of the weekend but the moment I saw him I felt so much better. He gave me this giant hug and kiss on the forehead and all my stress and exhaustion went away. I was wearing my sandals so I fit just comfortably under his chin. That’s my favorite place. =)

We went to subway on the Promenade and talked about this lady singing a sad song on such a beautiful day. We talked lanyards and how Dante planned to make his evil by putting metal beads on it and using it to hit random people across the street. We talked about his article on ThaO'show and how the issue of stereotypes is still prominent even in wrestling. I love that people think racism is over, and that minorities don't still have to deal with it.

After lunch we continued our walk, then hit up Pinkberry. Yes I wanted Oreos on the passion fruity "cold treat" but I bet it woulda tasted good. We settled on mango, blueberries and fruity pebbles, and while I watched Dante fight the ant twosome I enjoyed the sun and the cold from our meal and thought of how lucky I am to share the company of a very sweet boyfriend that came from West Hollywood to see me. Thanks again love!

July 14, 2009

So today was not one of my best days. I was given my "final notice" about making mistakes (more specifically in regard to this one client's case) but I think that may aslo apply to my general performance. For some reason I just cannot seem to focus. The moment I got the "notice" I started to react... my stomache started knotting up and I have this headache that even Extra Strength Tylonol can't fix. I'm sure blogging during the day can't possibly help... but the rest of my time is already taken up so I gotta use what time I have.


I keep so much inside and it frustrates me but I can't always vocalize it in ways that other people can understand and I end up more frustratded, when trying to relay my feelings, than when I just keep things inside. I think I might need to go to counseling again. I need to vent to someone who is completly unbiased.

I know that I could vent to God too... He always listens. It's kinda funny cause even as I'm writing this I'm feeling better. Sometimes I just need to remind myself that God's word is there not only as a reminder of how I should live me life but also as a reminder of God's love for me. As I continue to keep that in mind I forget about those things that bother me and conjest my mind. I know that at some point I'll have to address them. But for now I can keep thinking about Neh. 8:10 the latter part says "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Until the next time something negative tried to plauge my thoughts....

Hope this works...

So, this is my first time "blogging". I can't promise anything exciting but on occasion you may read something that is in my head that I haven't said out loud. A lil about me: I'm Guyanese American (my dad hates when I describe myelf that way casue it "doesn't seem like I acknowledge that I'm black"), a growing Christian woman, I recently turned 26 and I'm ready to start living my life in the present while continuing to set things in motion that will affect my future. I'm a college graduate (Thank God, and "take that!" to those counselors that said it wouldn't happen), a daughter, anolder sister, "twin/cuz" and girlfriend. All of these relationships make me very happy. My family is the most supportive family I know, the older ladies can be a lil critical at times but as we all get older either they becoem more tolerable or just easier to ignore =). I couldn't ask for a more supportive boyfriend, I thank God each day for putting him in my life and I pray that we'll continue to grow and develope along side each other. [xoxo babe]

There is more to me but I just wanted to see what it was like to actually blog... YEA 1 down how many more to go??!!?!?!?